By David Seth Michaels
I've had stacks of books since I was a kid. In the beginning I used Funk and Wagnall's small, dark blue encyclopedias to build skyscrapers on the living room floor. Later in my life, the stacks became furniture. A nice, even pile of textbooks served as a small night table. A low, wide structure of art books made a nice ottoman.
And now, now the books are malleable, disorderly hillocks at my side of the bed. They're there to stub a toe against in the small hours of darkness, or to rummage through when new reading material is needed. Or maybe to heat long winter nights liked stacked firewood. I rummage because I'm not really sure what's there.
Tonight, across the top of my hill, I have novels by Juan Rulfo, Jose Donoso, Cabrera Infante, Alejo Carpentier, Jose Lezama Lima, D.H. Lawrence. These aren't books that were part of the justifiably-worshiped canon that I (and maybe you) read in college. They represent nonetheless some wonderful writing.
I'm immersed in Jose Lezama Lima's Paradiso. I'm at the beginning of what promises to be an eleven-course feast. The soup hasn't even arrived and I find this paragraph in the hors d'oeuvres, on page five:
"The Colonel's books: the Encyclopedia Britannica, the works of Felipe Trigo, spy novels of World War I in which female spies had to engage in prostitution and the boldest male spies had to acquire wisdom and an ice-coated beard on geological expeditions to Siberia or the Kamchatka. Such books filled up spaces, and were never given a second thought by those literal-minded, portly people who read a book overnight as soon as they buy it. Their books are always displayed in the same inconvenient and irregular order in which they are acquired, unlike the books of more cultured people, also put on bookshelves, where they must wait two or three years to be read -- an immediate and almost unconscious effect, not unlike the new trousers of elegant English gentlemen, worn for the first few days by their butlers, until they acquire a stylish simplicity.
I know books aren't people. They're objects, they don't breathe. Are mine, stacked as they are in piles with no discernible relationship, and no clear theme, part of someone's story about me? Is somebody reviewing the books in my piles and drawing conclusions about me from what books I have and what they think these books might mean?
Like people, books don't have a detectable soul. And they indulge in mysterious communications with each other. So if the Colonel's books tell us something about the Colonel, what do my books, piled up next to my bed -- some of them still wrapped in cellophane-- tell about me?
Do the stacks mean that I'm hoarding novels in case there's a literature famine? Are they a sign that I find television and more recently, radio, and especially NPR, impossibly annoying? Are they just a cheapskate's evening escapism and a benign substitute for intoxicants?
Most important to me, books, especially these books, gossip to each other. What are these books saying to each other during those long transitory afternoons of bedroom stillness and gurgling radiators, when the sun is faint and low in the sky, and you can hear the clock ticking down the hall? And what fables and anecdotes are they telling my dog and cats, curled up next to them or on them, about me?
What stories do they tell each other? I imagine that they each speak in distinctive voices and accents, like the chapters in Cabrera Infante's Three Trapped Tigers, in which he imitates five Cuban writers' styles, and that their opinions, whatever they are, are delivered with style and craft, as if they were some wonderful writing. Only more evanescent because they are not written down before silence again fills the room.
David Seth Michaels is a writer and lawyer who lives and works in Columbia County, New York. His first novel, The Dream Antilles, is available through Amazon.com and through his blogsite, http://www.dreamantilles.blogspot.com, where this piece of writing first appeared. MyStoryLives would like to thank David Michaels for the original inspiration that led to this blogsite!