I am sitting at my dining room table wearing what looks like an old lady’s bathing cap, only this one comes with wires, electrodes and a battery pack.
It may look weird, but lately this safe but very powerful device has become my closest ally in keeping depression at bay. While I wear it, I am doing something called neurofeedback, a decades-old technique that not only has helped me, but also has dramatically improved the lives of others I know, people for whom no other depression treatments have worked.
One of those people is a dear friend in Denver, where I live during the winter months. Carol, whose name I have changed, has tried a boatload of different antidepresssants over the years, but has never found a drug that worked successfully to boost her mood. After my success with neurofeedback late last year, I mentioned the technique to her over coffee in January, and told her how much it was helping me.
The next thing I knew she had found a neurofeedback practitioner and had begun treatment.
When I met Carol for coffee last week, she greeted me by saying, "Claudia, I am deeply indebted to you for that recommendation." I was surprised and delighted, and asked her how she was feeling.
"I am a completely new person," she said.
A Well-Kept Secret in Mental Health Treatment
Carol isn't the only person who has responded so dramatically. I have, and so has my sister and at least one other person I know of.
The question I keep asking myself is why did I have to wait until I was in my seventies to discover neurofeedback? Why is this antidepressant treatment such a well-kept secret? Like so many millions of others, I thought the principle way to treat depression was chemical, that is, to take oodles of anti-depressants.
One book I have consulted, called A Symphony in the Brain, by Jim Robbins, suggests why neurofeedback hasn't "exploded onto the treatment landscape."
"Brain wave training remains a victim of the fact that it is outside mainstream concepts, is far ahead of the science of how it works, has a persistent but undeserved reputation as a softheaded 'new age' idea, and is a model that -- unlike the drug model -- doesn't lend itself to astronomical profits."
In other words, Big Pharma hasn't found a way to make oodles of money on neurofeedback.
How Neurofeedback Works
When people learn about my experience, they inevitably ask me how neurofeedback works. Here is what I understand. I sit before a computer screen displaying powerful visual images -- like spectacular photos of the cosmos or gorgeous scenes from what looks like the Colorado Rockies where my husband and I love to hike.
But I don't see the entire image all at once. Instead, I receive it piece by piece, one small rectangle at a time. My brain in effect earns each new section of the image only when I'm emitting the optimal brain waves.
Through this process, my brain learns to reprogram itself. What do I need to do to generate these improved brain waves? Not much. I am instructed simply to relax and focus on the image. Often, I find myself smiling knowing I am effectively crafting a healthier brain -- it feels rather cosmic.
OK, but I can't say precisely how that brain reprogramming happens. How exactly do brain neurons that have been firing one way for years, suddenly change gears and fire in another way?
Even neurofeedback practitioners aren't exactly sure how it works. But the important thing is, they know it does work. And unlike many antidepressant drugs, neurofeedback doesn't seem to have any adverse side effects, either.
My Sister's Introduction to Neurofeedback
It was my younger sister, Karen Ricci, trained as an RN and public health researcher, who first introduced me to the idea of neurofeedback. She started working with a neurofeedback practitioner in Hadley, Massachusetts, Mark Gapen, PhD, last June and pretty soon Karen reported to me that her mood had lifted in a remarkable way, one that she had never experienced before. She wasn’t giddy; she simply felt like she had a buoyant new energy.
“I’m awfully glad I found it,” she says. It has made all the difference in how my sister feels about life. She is upbeat and energetic, and thinking about life in a positive way.
From Political Depression to Personal Crisis
I grew a lot more interested in neurofeedback after the election last November, when, like millions and millions of other Americans, I felt like I had rolled off a cliff into a deep dark crevass of fear, depression and terror at what was to come.
Meanwhile, a week later, my husband was told that he needed major back surgery. That too had me tied up in knots. The combination was deadly, or so it felt in late November.
I talked to my therapist and she mentioned that she had a client who was having remarkable results with neurofeedback.
“He’s tried everything,” Maureen told me, “including ketamine and nothing worked for him before, not until this!”
That was enough for me. I quickly called the neurofeedback practitioner that her client was seeing in Pittsfield, Massachusetts. By some miracle, I was able to get an appointment.
Rapid Results that Seem Impossible
OK, this next part might strike you as impossible. But I swear it’s the truth: after a couple of intake discussions by phone, I had my first neurofeedback session in Pittsfield on December 10th with family therapist Margaret Dondiego, who is board certified in neurofeedback. I had two sessions with her the following week, on December 17th and 19th. I skipped a week or so for the holidays and had my fourth session on January 2, 2025, just a few days before my husband and I left for Colorado.
By that point, I was feeling a dramatic improvement in my mood. Moreover, as I explained to Margaret, I was feeling more calm and resilient than I had in a very long time.
How is it possible that four sessions could have such an impact?
The short answer is that neurofeedback builds on the brain’s inherent “neuroplasticity,” its natural ability to change, and it leads the brain to function more calmly and effectively. As one website explains, neurofeedback is a safe and non-invasive technique that enables you to alter your own brain wave characteristics. “You can think of it as exercise for the brain.”
Or as Margaret keeps emphasizing with me, “you are rewiring your brain so that it can better regulate itself.” She adds: “It is, in a certain way, technology-assisted meditation.”
That’s something I can relate to, as I’ve been meditating every morning for decades.
The Science Behind the Treatment
Margaret’s initial instructions to me when I first started in her office were very simple. “Try to remain internally calm and externally focused.” Why? Because if you’re not calm and focused, you won’t get the brain reward that neurofeedback delivers.
The field of neurofeedback has been around as far back as the 1970s and 1980s, when researchers began studying the effects of neurofeedback on control epilepsy.
One of the biggest proponents of the field today is psychologist Sebern Fisher, who is based in Northampton, MA. Dr. Fisher trains practitioners in neurofeedback all over the world. Beginning in about 1996, she began using neurofeedback on children and adolescents who were suffering from severe abuse and trauma.
As clinical director of a residential treatment center in Massachusetts for many years, Dr. Fisher encountered some of the most difficult and destructive behaviors imaginable in a population of kids who never had love from a mother or other primary caretaker. Many of these kids were shipped from one foster home to another. Most suffered from neglect or complete abandonment.
What's amazing is that Dr. Fisher discovered that neurofeedback worked wonders in this hard-to-treat population. Neurofeedback acted on the so-called "primitive" brain, helping kids and young adults who desperately needed to deal with their fear, the emotion which is at the heart of so-called developmental trauma. What Dr. Sebern found is that after treatment with neurofeedback, these children were able to begin talk therapy for the very first time in their lives.
My Ongoing Journey
When I first saw Margaret, I had the feeing that no amount of talk therapy would move me out of my slump. I was completely unwilling to consider that I might be able to meet the challenges facing me. Or think about life in a positive way. But after only a few sessions, I felt like I was back in the land of the living, feeling hopeful in spite of the problems I had perceived to be overwhelming only weeks before.
I have told Margaret several times over the last three months that I feel "resilient," that is, I have a calm feeling of confidence in myself. And I believe in a gut way that I can handle life's ups and downs.
My friend Carol in Denver describes a similar experience. Her mood is lifted in a way it wasn't before. And for the first time in her adult life, she is starting to exercise. Like me, she describes feeling resilient and energized.
Because my husband and I live in Colorado in the winter months, helping to take care of our grandson, I am not able to see Margaret for neurofeedback in her office in Massachusetts. But Margaret has helped me acquire (and wire) that silly contraption that I have on my head in the photo up top. Outfitted with my odd-looking cap, and an easy-to-use app on
my iphone, I can now do neurofeedback wherever I happen to be.
If all this sounds implausible, I assure you it isn’t.
I am living proof that neurofeedback works. I continue to marvel at its power to positively affect mind and brain. But it isn't just my experience. Jim Robbins, author of A Symphony in the Brain, writes, "The effects of neurofeedback are not subtle. They are extremely robust. There is nothing else like it, not even other kinds of biofeedback That's one of the reasons it has languished. There is nothing to compare it to."
Unfortunately, practitioners and researchers trying to get grants to study neurofeedback have been stymied. One highly respected researcher at UCLA, Dr. Barry Sherman, has done pioneering research on neurofeedback, and has published more than 150 papers in top journals. He has applied for grants to continue studying neurobeedback but the NIH has turned him down.
"...the National Institutes of Health will not give us grants," Sherman told author Robbins. "We've written solid grants but the minute you use the term neurofeedback certain people's minds snap shut. Sometimes I feel like Galileo."
This personal account reflects my own experience with neurofeedback. While it has been transformative for me, individual results may vary. Always consult healthcare professionals about treatment options for depression or other mental health conditions. If you are looking for a neurofeedback practitioner in your area, be sure to consult the Biofeedback Certification International Alliance (BCIA), the organization that certifies individuals in the practise.